Through the Pain - Guest Blog by Nate Wessley

Every time I share this part of our story it feels as if I'm ripping a band-aid off a wound that is healing and leaving it exposed for the world to see. It's excruciating....but I know that it's necessary.

Because, what I know is that there is someone out there who needs to know they aren't alone in their battle. Someone out there needs to know that their story matters and others are walking it with you even if it's on shaky ground.

When this picture was taken our son Amos had already left his tiny body and was in the arms of Jesus. At the same time, my sweet wife had been rushed to emergency surgery as her bleeding wouldn't subside and her vitals were tanking fast.

When this picture was snapped all I could really imagine was walking out of that hospital all alone....no Becca, no Amos, and five over kiddos to go home and relay the news to. I was at my absolute rock bottom. By God's grace, Becca pulled through but that didn't change the fact that days later we would have to leave our sweet baby's body there as we walked out of the hospital with tears streaming down our faces.

No words can really capture the emotions that were in the car with us as we slowly drove away from the hospital that day. It was all too much...and honestly still is. Every family trip that he's not there for and every family picture that he isn't in is another prod into the pain. Another reminder of what could have been.

We have taken many, many steps towards healing, but will never find the end of that road this side of heaven. But, there is something else that has happened and I believe it’s so important for you other wounded warriors to hear.

Through it all God has shown Himself to be the faithful one that He promises to be. He has always met us in our situation(s) and gives an abundant amount of grace to cover the wounds we have received. He has used our pain as a catalyst for our relationship with Him. And through it all He has taught us to build bridges to others and be a beacon of hope that points others to Jesus.

I hope our story can show others that God wants to walk through the pain with you....and when you can't walk or even stand He'll be there to pick you up and carry you. Life can be really, really hard...but God is ALWAYS undeniably good.

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